Not a newbie

My face in the blog world is not a new one. I have been a frequent visitor, but via another blog ring: http://weblog.xanga.com/HeatherMilburn

After seeing the wildfire created by blogspot, however, I decided to connect through this avenue as many of my close friends have done. So, here I am!

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This upcoming Monday, I will be 32 weeks along. I can not believe it. It has gone so quickly! Judging by this last week, though, I think that the next 2 months will feel like 10! I have woken up every hour to pee, switched sleeping positions so much that I think I burrowed a hole in our mattress, gotten sick from eating large meals because I refused to believe that there was no longer room in my stomach for a bowl of soup AND a sandwich, cried for no other reason than I just wanted the house to not be cluttered, become exhausted from walking across the street at work and been awoken in the middle of the night by swift kicks in my gut by a tiny child. And although these things sound miserable and can be frustrating at times....I have really loved them! I can't believe how far we have come in this pregnancy and how amazing it is to have this little being inside of me. What an amazing blessing God gave us to be a small part of creating life. Learning to love, nurture and become selfless in a most incredible way!

After much deliberation, Daniel and I decided to pay for an extra ultrasound. We really wanted to give some special momentos to a couple of people and we were becoming increasingly anxious to confirm the gender of our little one. People continually asked us....."what if it's a boy?" I brushed it off enough times, but after a little while, I could feel tiny seeds of doubt being planted in my head. Not that I wouldn't be ok with a boy, but I was just beginning to feel super connected to my little daughter and didn't know how I would revert my thinking if she turned out to be a little boy. And by this time, Daniel was falling madly in love with his little girl every single day. I can't believe how excited he gets when he talks about her. Every morning he kisses my stomach and says good morning. She responds by kicking and rolling over. The most common phrase out of his mouth lately is, "She's so cute." He says it all the time. And, I have to admit...I don't always feel like hearing it. When I am feeling rather nauseous or she is kicking me so hard it hurts, he always asks me what's wrong. I tell him and then he says, "She's so cute." Yeah.....freaking adorable.

Anyway, we decided to go to a place close by that does 3D ultrasounds. They allowed us to bring our family with us. It was such a neat experience. They had me lay down on the bed and it started out as a normal 2D ultrasound. After a couple of buttons were pushed, this little face appeared before me.

My first reaction was one of awe. You can actually see what she looks like! Right now! In my tummy! Those little hands are the ones that I feel punching me and sliding around. And the most incredible thing? She looks just like me! I am not even kidding. My baby pictures are almost identical. My nose, my mouth, my crease in the forehead. It's pretty amazing.

And we got to see her little feet and her little hands. Almost as if we were holding her!

Later, when we were home, Daniel was looking through the pictures and said, "She is like a clone of you. Is there anything on this child that belongs to me?"

After that, I suddenly got this surge of motherly instinct arise in me. I got so excited to work on her room and the best part was that they gave us clear confirmation that our little girl, is, in fact, our little girl. So, that was like a green light for me to cut off all the tags of all her little clothes that were hanging up in her room. It was like I was looking at everything from a new light. I am having a baby. And she is coming soon.