Ahhhhh.......


In case you were wondering, that was me, sighing a big sigh of relief at how much easier things have become in the Milburn house with sweet baby girl Miriam.


Awwww........


In case you were wondering, that was me, cooing at my beautiful baby girl and how freaking adorable she is now.


WAAAHHHHH.......


In case you were wondering, that is me, sobbing at how fast sweet baby girl Miriam is growing up.


One thing I am shocked at is the following: my heart HURTS with how much I love her. You may think to yourself, "Shocked? Really? Didn't you think you would love your baby girl?" Well, my faithful readers (ok, just my readers......ok, just the people I pay to read my blog so that it appears that I both have friends AND an interesting life) if you could have lived in my head the first couple months of my daughter's life, you would have felt the guilt that I did and been amazed at how much I compared myself to other mothers.


Things were rough. Real rough. I cried a lot. A whole lot.


So, yes, I am shocked at how much I love her. For example, I am sitting in the basement typing this blog as my sweet husband has given me the afternoon off and is currently watching football with Miriam in his arms. I miss her. She is upstairs and I can hear her make silly noises and I miss her. I will see her when I have to feed her again in about 40 minutes or when I have to go to the bathroom. But, I still miss her. That is amazing to me. I praise God for her. She is incredible. And I love love LOVE being her mom.


Miriam has been smiling and cooing all the time. She makes these really high pitched noises and kicks her legs and flails her arms when she gets excited. It is so funny. Especially because she hasn't laughed yet. Well, not when she's awake. She seems to lose her inhibitions when she is sleeping. She laughs and farts a LOT. But, when she is awake, she can't quite get that laughing thing down. You can tickle her and she starts breathing really fast, kicking her legs and opening her mouth. She then gets really frustrated that she can't laugh and then she cries.


She is very social and likes to be talked to. Especially when you tell her she is pretty. You will get a big smile from that.

We are currently working on getting the nap schedule down. She knows when it is bed time, but naps during the day "aren't her thing." So, it took over an hour this morning to get her to sleep, but with some WONDERFUL advice from Aunt Amy, we are on our way to being a happy, sleeping baby.

On a side note, I absolutely ABHOR the way blog spot requires you to upload pictures. It takes WAY too long to edit after uploading them, so I am going to use Picasa in the meantime. If you want to see some new pictures of Miriam, you can go to this link:

http://picasaweb.google.com/milburn.heather/NovemberAndDecember2008#