Pre-baby blues

This last week I have been very down. It has been frustrating for a number of reasons. One....I don't want my "blues" to be misinterpreted as non-excitement for my soon-to-be bundle of joy; and two....I have found that friends either don't know how to deal with the onset of my emotions or they dismiss it as "hormonal." I think the source of my frustration lies in the inability to do things that I want to do (no, not something as simple as ordering a margarita with dinner; although that WILL be wonderful.....). I'm talking about the fact that I have a baby coming in 5 weeks, more or less, and I have so many things that I am excited to do in preparation, but my lack of energy brings those desires to a screeching halt. It's more that being tired from lack of sleep. It's a lack of energy that gets my heart pumping when I am doing household chores for more than 20 minutes. It is the weirdest phenomenon. This coupled with my incredibly swollen legs and feet has really been dragging on my spirits.
But, all this being said....I really am excited for baby girl to get here! It is so surreal and so incredibly exciting! Little by little, her bedroom is coming together. If she arrived today, I wouldn't be stressed out. This is MAINLY due to my INCREDIBLE mother. She has been so selfless and non-judgemental throughout this whole week. Saturday, she came over to our house and cleaned our bedroom and bathroom (the biggest thorn in my side throughout the whole house. I so desire our bedroom to be a sanctuary to fall into in the evenings, but until now, it has been a crap-hole.), did a TON of laundry and made us a delicious lasagna for dinner. It felt wonderful to spend time with her chatting and all the while taking notes about the kind of selfless servant of a mother I so desire to be to my own daughter. Mom, I love you and appreciate you so much!!!
This week will prove to be a much more organized week, I think. Having my house clean and only having to "keep it up" helps tremendously and will give me more time to get some much needed things done. After watching several friends go into labor early, Daniel really wants us to get our bag all packed and ready for the hospital. So, that is the goal. All-be-it a small one. But, it is the goal all the same. Baby steps. Literally!