Anxiety

I am having these huge waves of anxiety related solely to the fact that I don't have anything packed for the hospital. Nothing. Not one thing. This may not sound like a big deal, but for some reason, it is keeping me up at night. Is that nesting?

Why don't I just pack my bag, you ask?

Well, there is more anxiety attached with that question. What do I pack? I don't have enough clothes to pack stuff in there right now. If I had the money, I would go buy clothes just to pack in there. I did go buy empty travel containers to fill with our body soap and shampoo, but they are still sitting empty up in my bathroom.

And I need to make a playlist on my iPod for labor. I am attempting a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Caesarean) and am feeling anxious about that, too. I have no desire to go through what I did with Miriam and am praying for a good experience and an epidural that works. I reserved a Lamaze video at the library and need to pick it up. I remember the first breathing exercise and the last one. But, what is #2 and #3? AGGGHHH!!!!

I don't have any slippers. And socks are making my feet swell.

I also really want to pack some suckers. Anyone know where I can get the jolly rancher SUCKERS? Not the regular jolly rancher candies, but the suckers. I can't find them anywhere.

Anxiety. It's getting to be the norm.